At 3:17 in the morning the police rang to tell me my husband had been killed in a crash, while he was asleep beside me with one leg over mine. The officer said: leave the room without waking the man next to you.

Two officers were at our door inside twenty minutes.

Cassian was extremely calm. He produced his licence, answered everything, and made a joke about somebody having picked a bad night to steal a truck.

We went to Renwick General.

When they put that man's things on a table in a side room my legs nearly went.

The watch I bought him for our fifth anniversary. The wallet with the corner worn through. The ring, with our initials inside it, which I had engraved myself at a counter in 2019.

"They can take everything I own," Cassian said. "That doesn't make the d.e.a.d man me."

The doctor said the face was not identifiable.

Then he read the rest of it off a sheet.

Male, approximately thirty-two. Six feet one. Blood type A positive. An old surgical scar low on the right abdomen consistent with an appendectomy.

Cassian is thirty-two. He is six feet one. He is A positive.

He had his appendix out in 2020.

He lifted his shirt in that room and the scar was exactly where the doctor had said.

In the lift on the way back up to our floor at about half five he took my face in both hands.

"Anouk. Look at me. It's me."

And he told me about the chapel wall at college, and the garlic bread, and how I had nearly died of embarrassment afterward about my breath.

Nobody else in the world knows that.

I wanted to be relieved and I nearly got there.

Then he pressed the button for our floor with his left hand, and Cassian does everything with his right, and I stood in that lift and felt the floor move.

At nine the police rang again.

The truck had left our parking garage at twenty-two minutes past ten the previous night. The driver wore a cap. The camera angle is useless.